Essays

  • Having fun
    I suppose if I were to break it down and take SF6 as an example (or any fighting game for that matter) and answer the question why is the game fun? I would have to start…
  • Arbitrary Goals
    Why do I care about my arbitrary goals? My first thought would be because it gives my life meaning; it makes my life worth living. I would argue life has no inherent worth: it’s just…
  • Defeated
    I feel… Defeated, sort of? I’m not sure how to describe what I’m feeling, but demotivated is certainly a part of it. You see, I thought I was doing well, despite my 48% winrate (40%…
  • I don’t feel like I don’t want to play League
    Despite me wanting to play League, my last solo queue game was fifteen days ago. Quite odd, no? I can clearly feel—within myself—a want to play the game, yet I do not play it. The…
  • Why is League fun?
    Before we begin breaking down League of Legends to find out what is fun about it, I think we should define “fun” first. I often use words like “satisfying” or “enjoyable” to describe fun, so…
  • When someone asks me how I feel
    This is a (hopefully) formal essay about how I feel. In it I explain my feelings to the best of my ability and attempt to explain what they are and where they come from. I…